Man fucking stimulants are my life. I gave up my DOG and now it's cigarettes and coffee. I need to get off the smokes man. I will and I can. I have a triathlon to achieve this summer. I will join the JCC as soon as I'm back in Toronto and start biking and developing my legs even more. My goal is 175 lbs or less by this race and to STOP SMOKING. Who knew blogging would be so difficult. I have the bees in my belly again but not the hangover thank g'd. Good Orderly Direction has been a life saving prospect. So has EASY DOES IT, and JUST FOR TODAY. Two unbelievable simple concepts to make my life more manageable. Just for today I will not drink alcohol, I will do yoga, i will journal or blog like mad. I will be kind with my words, I will not get angry at my kids, I will attend a special meeting, and I will live by the adage of EASY DOES IT. My life has become manageable and filled with hope. I am no longer tied to the shit that nearly sunk my ass.

I'm out of gas now.....I will be back.